On disappointment, ambivalence

It was just announced that my 10 year high school reunion will be held July 19...two weeks after CONvergence.

Which means I won't be able to go. Can't exactly afford two plane trips in one month (plus, I think I'll have used up my accrued vacation at that point).

I'm not sure exactly how to feel about this. On one hand, I'm disappointed I won't be able to show off my awesome husband and talk about my cool job in D.C. to those I haven't seen in years. (Ah, the dream of every picked-on nerd: coming back to brag about their successes years later.) On the other hand, if history is any indicator, school-related events that are built up to be a big deal usually end in disappointment (i.e. every dance I ever went to). In fact, I can't actually think of a single major high school event I came away from glad I attended.

So it could end up being a complete waste of time and money even if I do go...but there's part of me that would like to find out rather than assume.

So I find myself ambivalent.

On the plus side, at least I'm connecting with some long-lost high school pals on Facebook...and the nice thing about that is, I don't have to connect with the people I'm not interested in seeing (of whom there are many).

"Remember my story, Plug -- I'm suing the government over some bad meat."